I am kinda frustrated. I had six OPK from the RE. wal.mart brand. I used those and I liked them b/c they showed when you were not having registered levels of LH hormone and when the levels start to rise, the color changes, until eventually the line is dark as or more then the test strip.
Well, I used all those up and wal.mart was sold out so I got clea.r Bl.ue easy. The first one I tried showed nothing. It was defunct. Not even a test strip.
the second one I used had the test strip but showed no elevation in LH hormone. What the hell....wal.mart brand showed rising hormones.
But at least I had fun last night. hehehe.
Despite having half a uterus and MTHFR, I have two beautiful children. Our baby girl H and big brother, Bug.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
OPK and interview (not at the same time)
OPK
Well, these things do work. The line is starting to get darker. I had my morning bladder emptying session and remembered right at the end to test. Oppsy. then worked out with lots of water. So line was light when I finally took it. Not sure if this is because of drinking and diluting or if it's just starting to get dark.
Either way, I told hubby we are doing it tonight. Tomorrow he wont be home until late, boy (as in Hubby) has to play, dodge ball. Tonight it is. I want them there swimmers in place in case the line is the darkest tomorrow.
then we can go at it again another day. Oh, I am excited. Yes for the sex AND for finally getting to do something instead of waiting around. You all know how much I love to wait.
Interview
Had my second interview at the agency today. I dont think I had to try to blow it. My resume did it for me. I dont know for sure, but I dont think I will get the job. The competitor in me is disappointed, as well as the broke me. But I have no experience working with mentally ill adults, which appeared to be a concern. But by the looks of the weirdo interviewing me the other candidate wasn't so hot either.
So I may or may not get it. Which is good, cause I dont really want the hours. Bad because I really need the money.
Well, these things do work. The line is starting to get darker. I had my morning bladder emptying session and remembered right at the end to test. Oppsy. then worked out with lots of water. So line was light when I finally took it. Not sure if this is because of drinking and diluting or if it's just starting to get dark.
Either way, I told hubby we are doing it tonight. Tomorrow he wont be home until late, boy (as in Hubby) has to play, dodge ball. Tonight it is. I want them there swimmers in place in case the line is the darkest tomorrow.
then we can go at it again another day. Oh, I am excited. Yes for the sex AND for finally getting to do something instead of waiting around. You all know how much I love to wait.
Interview
Had my second interview at the agency today. I dont think I had to try to blow it. My resume did it for me. I dont know for sure, but I dont think I will get the job. The competitor in me is disappointed, as well as the broke me. But I have no experience working with mentally ill adults, which appeared to be a concern. But by the looks of the weirdo interviewing me the other candidate wasn't so hot either.
So I may or may not get it. Which is good, cause I dont really want the hours. Bad because I really need the money.
chuck e cheese disaster
I was so not impressed with Bugs party at Chuck E cheese. First off, they had eight parties at the same time ours was. It was chaotic. Our teen-e-bopper ("T") of a waitress sucked. Table was not set up when we got there. Our pizza was late, kids didnt get a drink until most of their pizza was gone and that was after Hubby asked for them three times and I finally took some cups and helped myself.
At one point I was cleaning up the tables to prepare for presents. "T" came over and said you dont have to do that. My response. yes I do, because you havent. I had to ask to bring the cake out. She lite the candle before I was able to get in front of Bug to take a picture. By the time I squeezed in, he had already blown out the candle. I made her light it again. I had to cut the cake with a plastic picnic knife.
And in the middle of cutting the cake, hands all goopy from frosting, the "parade" with Chuck E was announced and Bug was so overwhelmed he wanted me to go with him, sticky hands and all. Bday kids were suppose to meet chuck-E, but so many other kids were there Bug couldn't get to him.
All eight parties were jammed together so that parents could not even stand behind their kids or walk the isle to help little ones. There was no room for one party set of parents let alone two for the one isle.
T brought the bill over in the middle of opening presents. As if I have time for it then. I had to give the comment card to Hubby to fill out b/c I was so pissed. Shortly after she came back and even though she said No rush on the bill asked if I got a chance to see it. NO! Bug was opening presents.
Everything about it sucked. Some kids showed up that didnt RSVP. I didnt have gift bags for them. PLUS they really didn't participate with the party. Their mom's took their kids bday participant tokens and used them themselves. I was ripped. Hubby put bugs bday coins, which was like 50 tokens on the table during presents and they were stolen. We were right there. I think it was no RSVP moms.
But thankfully Bug was clueless and had a great time. He insisted he wasn't five until after his party. He turned five at Chuck E Cheese, he said.
After you are done looking at my adorable boy and imagining the candle lite, check out the space for adults in the isle. Thankfully the kids in the table behind had moved onto the games and jungle gym by then. Or there would have been NO room for adults.
At one point I was cleaning up the tables to prepare for presents. "T" came over and said you dont have to do that. My response. yes I do, because you havent. I had to ask to bring the cake out. She lite the candle before I was able to get in front of Bug to take a picture. By the time I squeezed in, he had already blown out the candle. I made her light it again. I had to cut the cake with a plastic picnic knife.
And in the middle of cutting the cake, hands all goopy from frosting, the "parade" with Chuck E was announced and Bug was so overwhelmed he wanted me to go with him, sticky hands and all. Bday kids were suppose to meet chuck-E, but so many other kids were there Bug couldn't get to him.
All eight parties were jammed together so that parents could not even stand behind their kids or walk the isle to help little ones. There was no room for one party set of parents let alone two for the one isle.
T brought the bill over in the middle of opening presents. As if I have time for it then. I had to give the comment card to Hubby to fill out b/c I was so pissed. Shortly after she came back and even though she said No rush on the bill asked if I got a chance to see it. NO! Bug was opening presents.
Everything about it sucked. Some kids showed up that didnt RSVP. I didnt have gift bags for them. PLUS they really didn't participate with the party. Their mom's took their kids bday participant tokens and used them themselves. I was ripped. Hubby put bugs bday coins, which was like 50 tokens on the table during presents and they were stolen. We were right there. I think it was no RSVP moms.
But thankfully Bug was clueless and had a great time. He insisted he wasn't five until after his party. He turned five at Chuck E Cheese, he said.
After you are done looking at my adorable boy and imagining the candle lite, check out the space for adults in the isle. Thankfully the kids in the table behind had moved onto the games and jungle gym by then. Or there would have been NO room for adults.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Bug turns Five
I can not believe that in 20 minutes Bug will officially be five.
Where does the time go?
aprox. 8 wks old
1st bday party. Blues Clue theme
2nd bday on opening day of red sox (daddy's idea)
3rd bday (Thomas theme) picture on other computer...but I have this from that era.
3---> potty training. with fav. book The Napping House.
4th bday Tow Mater from the movie Cars
Last Month at Jokers.
Tomorrow's bday picture to come...
and no I dont make the cakes, "THE CAKE LADY" does. She if amazing.
Where does the time go?
aprox. 8 wks old
1st bday party. Blues Clue theme
2nd bday on opening day of red sox (daddy's idea)
3rd bday (Thomas theme) picture on other computer...but I have this from that era.
3---> potty training. with fav. book The Napping House.
4th bday Tow Mater from the movie Cars
Last Month at Jokers.
Tomorrow's bday picture to come...
and no I dont make the cakes, "THE CAKE LADY" does. She if amazing.
Friday, March 27, 2009
sex ed to 5 yo
http://www.wpri.com/dpp/news/local_wpri_parents_outraged_over_sex_education_bill_proposal_20090325
No freakin way!!! Bug will be in kindergarten this fall. He is so not ready for "the talk". As if talking to five year olds about sex will help teens from not having sex. give me a break.
No freakin way!!! Bug will be in kindergarten this fall. He is so not ready for "the talk". As if talking to five year olds about sex will help teens from not having sex. give me a break.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Fantasy baseball vs Labor
During my pregnancy with Bug I went into pre-term labor. I ended up in the L&D room during the super bowl when the Pats were playing. (we are from new england) Adam Vinatieri made a game winning FG. Jokingly, I said that if we had the baby we cant name him Adam. As we had already picked out the name Anth.ony Jam.es, to call him AJ. Hubby thought it was a great idea. We didnt have him that night. Thank God.
The night I went into labor for real was the night of Hubby's Baseball draft. At first I thought it was false labor or a reaction to the popcorn I ate. I watched tv and would randomly, for about three hours would go into the den and tell my husband it hurt and it wasn't stopping. He would continue doing whatever the heck guys do during their drafts, with a absent minded "you doing ok?" Sure I would reply.
By eleven at night the cramps were really getting bad so I decided to take a shower since the doc said if it was false they would go away with a change in body temp. During the shower I had a screaming ouch pain that bent me double. I came out and passed the den to lay down in bed. the den is across the bedroom. The bathroom was diagonally across from the den. I wasnt hiding the fact that I was uncomfortable and something was going on.
Hubby would call from the den to ask if I was doing ok. yeah yeah I would say knowing this was HIS DRAFT and he had been talking about it for weeks. As if I cared. Finally I yelled back. "I think its for real." I had already been in labor once before with AJ, ANTH.ONY not Adam, and knew what it felt like. When I said I thought it was real hubby said, "OH. Good timing, my draft just ended." What did he think, it just started then? On the drive to the hospital he patted my tummy and thanked the baby for waiting until after the draft before coming. I would like to believe that if I started to have the baby at home he would have left his draft to help deliver the baby. LOL
The night I went into labor for real was the night of Hubby's Baseball draft. At first I thought it was false labor or a reaction to the popcorn I ate. I watched tv and would randomly, for about three hours would go into the den and tell my husband it hurt and it wasn't stopping. He would continue doing whatever the heck guys do during their drafts, with a absent minded "you doing ok?" Sure I would reply.
By eleven at night the cramps were really getting bad so I decided to take a shower since the doc said if it was false they would go away with a change in body temp. During the shower I had a screaming ouch pain that bent me double. I came out and passed the den to lay down in bed. the den is across the bedroom. The bathroom was diagonally across from the den. I wasnt hiding the fact that I was uncomfortable and something was going on.
Hubby would call from the den to ask if I was doing ok. yeah yeah I would say knowing this was HIS DRAFT and he had been talking about it for weeks. As if I cared. Finally I yelled back. "I think its for real." I had already been in labor once before with AJ, ANTH.ONY not Adam, and knew what it felt like. When I said I thought it was real hubby said, "OH. Good timing, my draft just ended." What did he think, it just started then? On the drive to the hospital he patted my tummy and thanked the baby for waiting until after the draft before coming. I would like to believe that if I started to have the baby at home he would have left his draft to help deliver the baby. LOL
crap shoot
what a crap shoot of a day. I didnt sleep well at all last night. woke up to take Bug to preschool, make lunch for Hubby. After doing some stuff around the house, laid down to take a nap. Phone rings. I dont answer it. MIL does, (she lives with us, (her health) long story) but doesnt wake me up just then. Sees me stirring, which was really movements in my sleep-- part of a good dream that I dont remember anymore. It had something to do with being really tired and cuddling with the blankets as I lay down for a nap...I was already sleeping...kinda weird. But she woke me to tell me that the agency called and to call them back.
Kinda pissed she woke me. Sometimes it is just easier to sleep the day away. I get my barrings and call them back. they want a second interview. Job is between me and another person. Monday afternoon is the second interview. Great. it will be nice to be employed but I will be working opposite shifts with hubby and miss out on Bug daily happenings. Short term I tell myself. still sucks donkey ass.
CD3 my period is usually winding down. but not so right now. first period while on meds for MTHFR. So it's gone on longer then usual. But I am amazed at the lack of clotting. Then bding and 2ww. I can't wait for the 2ww to be over. I just have a feeling... it's got to work this time...right.
My luck the egg is coming from the wrong side. Why can't I be normal. It seems everything in my life has been a struggle. I dont get it. I could list all the bad, but honestly you dont want to hear it and I dont feel like writing it. But it just feels like when things are looking up. something else comes crashing down. WTH. no really WTF
I feel so alone right now. It's gorgeous out and I would like nothing better to call up a friend and go shopping. That is what I want to do right now. But I am lacking in two areas, the friend and the money. I'm a loner. I like being around people, but not great at keeping a friendship going. My depression and anxiety disorders always get in the way. I tend to isolate myself and then feel bad when I dont have any friends. I dont feel like I am good company. I always feel like someone would rather be somewhere else or with someone else. I want that best best best friend that I had in my Mom. No one quite fits that. Most of my good friends live far away. College and back home from where I am from. I think this might be a deliberate act on my part. It's easier to maintain friendships from a distance.
I long for when my boys get home. Bug and Hubby. maybe my mood sucks because I know Hubby will be home late again for the second time this week. First was due to dodge ball. Yeah he is on an adult dodge ball team. And today he has a work social. he has a life. I on the other hand dont. It sucks. I'm my own worst company. I dont want to be alone right now.
Kinda pissed she woke me. Sometimes it is just easier to sleep the day away. I get my barrings and call them back. they want a second interview. Job is between me and another person. Monday afternoon is the second interview. Great. it will be nice to be employed but I will be working opposite shifts with hubby and miss out on Bug daily happenings. Short term I tell myself. still sucks donkey ass.
CD3 my period is usually winding down. but not so right now. first period while on meds for MTHFR. So it's gone on longer then usual. But I am amazed at the lack of clotting. Then bding and 2ww. I can't wait for the 2ww to be over. I just have a feeling... it's got to work this time...right.
My luck the egg is coming from the wrong side. Why can't I be normal. It seems everything in my life has been a struggle. I dont get it. I could list all the bad, but honestly you dont want to hear it and I dont feel like writing it. But it just feels like when things are looking up. something else comes crashing down. WTH. no really WTF
I feel so alone right now. It's gorgeous out and I would like nothing better to call up a friend and go shopping. That is what I want to do right now. But I am lacking in two areas, the friend and the money. I'm a loner. I like being around people, but not great at keeping a friendship going. My depression and anxiety disorders always get in the way. I tend to isolate myself and then feel bad when I dont have any friends. I dont feel like I am good company. I always feel like someone would rather be somewhere else or with someone else. I want that best best best friend that I had in my Mom. No one quite fits that. Most of my good friends live far away. College and back home from where I am from. I think this might be a deliberate act on my part. It's easier to maintain friendships from a distance.
I long for when my boys get home. Bug and Hubby. maybe my mood sucks because I know Hubby will be home late again for the second time this week. First was due to dodge ball. Yeah he is on an adult dodge ball team. And today he has a work social. he has a life. I on the other hand dont. It sucks. I'm my own worst company. I dont want to be alone right now.
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