Tuesday, June 30, 2009

life goes on and I'm hanging on for dear life.

I haven't really done much blog wise, besides read all yours. Haven't been feeling chatty.

I've been feeling like crap-o-la. sleeping alot. Nausea hasn't gotten better but worse. I am not sure if that is because I am no longer taking folbee which was for blood mutation. High Risk doc said I no longer needed it for the safety of the baby. But it was full of vit. B6 and B12 which helped with nausea. My OB gave me some pills half the size of tic tacs that were working but caused horrible headaches. I stopped taking them. thus here comes more nausea. I have to brush my teeth in the shower for fear of throwing up. Hasn't been fun.

Bug continues to be clingy. If I have the laptop on my lap he will try to move it to lay his head in it's place. If I try to walk away he will wrap his arms around my foot and rest his head there. I walk around the house doing stuff and he follows me as if he is my shadow. He chooses not to go anywhere with his grandmother unless I go. Even if he wants to go. Bug talks alot about the baby. He has started calling it Hannah. the name we picked out for a girl. He knows Tommy is the boys name, but still only calls the baby Hannah. He really wants a girl.

Nothing knew with the baby. I can't fit into my regular pants. I am not comfortable laying down on my left side (uterus side) sometimes I cheat and lay on my back for a short period and then back to my right side. I got a body pillow to help with comfort. not helping much. I'm not really enjoying teh pregnancy as much as I enjoyed Bugs. Can't put my finger on it. Dont know if it's because I am depressed, have no money to buy things (or maybe this time around I dont want to buy useless items that new time moms think they MUST have.)or if it's because I know the risk factors where as with Bug I was blind to my bodies betrayal.

I mean we dont really have the room right now. We are going to be splitting the "nursery" with the den. so half the room will be a crib and bureau/changing table and the other half a desk with the computer and sewing desk/tv. with Bug I had a whole room done up with one theme, with matching everything. It was gorgeous. that was in our old house. I lent that set to my SIL who left it behind in the divorce...bitch. I asked her to get it. But she just didn't feel like it. Hundreds of dollars down the drain. her ex even moved it to his new apartment for her to pick up. She didn't. When he bought his own place (we were no longer talking) I have no idea what happened to it.

I am looking forward to fourth of july at my brother's camp. I've been so uncomfortable I can't wait to get in the water and just float. It's been icky here in Maine for weeks. Rain, rain, rain, and more rain, so I am sure the water will be freezing. But at this point I dont care. It will feel great on my achy body. I just hope it doesn't rain.

Enough babbling...if you kept reading this far...thanks....I haven't been fun to read lately.


  1. Sorry it hasn't been any better for you. I had the same issue with brushing my teeth. This is so gross, but for the duration of my pregnancy I only brushed the fronts of my teeth. Every time I dared open the teeth to try to clean the tops or the backs I would vomit instantly. I know, gross. Probably TMI. I just wanted you to know that I totally feel your pain on that front.

  2. Aw man, I'm sorry that you're still feeling so nauseous, i hope things get a little easier the further along you get. ((HUGS)) is there anything else you can take??

  3. I still have a difficult time when I brush my teeth as well. Ugh.

    Thanks for the idea about a 'sibling' class. I'll look in to it:-)

  4. I'm sorry you're feeling crappy. I lacked excitement with TTG.

    As you know though, babies really don't need anything much at all, just YOU, and well, you've got that :)