when will it end. This is the third nightmare I have had where I am losing the baby. It's going to be along pregnancy if this is what I have to deal with on a nightly basis.
I am not so scared during the day, ok maybe I am, but not mind consuming. Weird twinges or sharp pains make me nervous.
I'm getting to the point where I feel like crap all the time. I am exhausted to the point I can't function and when I am up I feel so icky that all I want to do is lay down.
I told hubby tonight he needs to scrub around and in the toilet, because like Bug's pregnancy I have the feeling I will be spending a lot of time there. Bug even offered to help put the scrubby thing on the toilet wand. whatta sweetie.
And it totally doesnt make sense that I am up at one in the morning when I am so damn tired.
So how do I explain to Bug that I dont have the flu. He thinks he is going to get my sickness. Like he gave Daddy his. We dont feel comfortable telling him this early that I am pregnant. For two reasons.
1. He wont understand if we lose the baby. He would be devastated.
2. It would be a long 9 months with (are we there yet like comments)when is the baby coming.
So how do I explain how miserable I am feeling and how tired I am. He is a compassionate boy. He wants me to feel better.
last night he mixed up a concoction in the bathroom sink and told me that it was soup to help me feel better. He was nice enough to use my only toothbrush as the stirrer and then give me his spider man toothbrush to replace it.
I dont want him to think I am sick all the time. Our cat Sophie threw up a hairball this evening. Bug was so worried about her. I dont want to cause him any anxiety.
Alrighty then. I am going to head back to bed and re-read this tomorrow and it will look like I wrote it in a drunken stooper from my college days. Cant wait.