"Baby are you OK?"

As most of you know, I found out via pee stick yesterday that I am BFP. I have an appointment for blood work on Monday. Wont know the results until Tuesday.

I am nervous. Each stomach pain, aches, cramps I get so nervous and wonder....

I haven't gotten the many small meals down. I usually only eat one maybe two meals a day. Not the healthiest habit. I've never been good with eating, either I eat too little or too much. I am trying to eat healthy. My tummy feels nauseous if I am not constantly eating.

I'm so scared of something going wrong. Despite the manic episodes during the 2ww, after two m/c I am so gun shy about being overly excited.

It doesn't seem real. Like at any minute disaster will strike. And my body will fail me once again.

I've been trying to stay calm. But I realized deep down I haven't been. Nasty cold sore arrived yesterday. Telling me that I have been stressed and exhausted. No kidding huh.

Waiting for either MIL or Hubby to wake up so I can go back to sleep. Even though it's going to be rainy icky today, we have a busy day and I am running on fumes.

Taking Bug to the movies. Second attempt. first attempt was when the Bee movie came out. He sat so well for the previews and first half of the movie, but then we had to leave he couldn't sit still. I think if we skip the previews he might have the ability to sit through a whole movie. We shall see. we are going to see Monsters VS. Aliens.

Two of my SIL have taken my nieces and nephew and says it's cute. A couple mild, hells and damns, but we have already had the conversation that we dont repeat bad words we hear on tv or from other people. Bug insists that Heck is a bad word. I'll go with that.